Maggots

After throwing away some chicken parts due to the stupid commissary not having boneless skinless chicken breasts... or any chicken breasts...we got a giant maggot issue in our trash can. It stunk and it was just so gross. Well the trash men did not dump out the trash can like usual so the trash can was left full of maggots. SO FREAKING GROSS. Gary wouldn't help me with cleaning them. It was awful. I had an idea that I would dump them out into the road and spray them down the storm drain. That was a great idea except they went everywhere! They were crawling all over and weren't that easy to spray down. Everytime I looked down I screamed because there would be one crawling on me!!! it was awful. I was so mad at Gary... he just said we shouldn't clean it out ... and just let them turn into flies and fly away. Typical men. He refused to help and just came in and was on the computer. Eff that....I was so mad. Talk about a shitty day! I wish I was still in Va...I miss having people....I have no fucking people here at all. There's a neighbor I talk to a little but I can tell she doens't really want to talk to me. And there's another neighbor but she's really busy with her kids... and she's a lot older than me, so I guess I won't be good friends with her. Plus a lot of people are only here temporarily. I'm so lonely. I actually kind of miss albuquerque. I mean I know it wouldn't have been the same because my favorite neighbor moved, but at least there was some one else to hang out with. I don't know how much of my husband and kids I can take! I wish it were easier to make friends. I wish Va was closer than  hours....it's too far to just jump in the car and go home.... with gas almost 4 bucks a gallon again its just not possible. I'm sad. Jessy and I are planning on going to Hilton Head in November. So that will be awesome. I've been looking into hotels and stuff but its hard because I don't know where to stay! I guess at least it gives me something to do and something to look forward to for sure. I'm ready!!!  

The finger incident

So last night ... we are all doing things upstairs... cleaning rooms and Gary was putting away his laundry and I was cleaning stuff...well Ben started slamming his door... and Madison was laughing... so Gary comes out and  tells Ben he needs to be careful not to slam Madison's fingers in the door... and goes back to his room to put his clothes away...i'm next door gathering madison's dirty clothes to bring downstairs and it happens... the uncontrollable wails.... he somehow got her finger... and it was the worst gut wrenching screams you've ever heard... her finger swelled instantly... and one side had a big red mark  and the other side the skin broke and was bleeding a little... the whole thing got all puffy.... Gary flipped out because he JUST told Ben not to do that.... so Ben is screaming and crying.. Madison is wailing uncontrollably.... I thought Gary was going to beat him! He didn't... he kept his cool but he was so mad...I've never actually seen him get so mad at either of the kids EVER.... poor girl... we decided to wait overnight since it was bedtime to see how her finger looked this morning and it was okay. We think it's fine. Hopefully. 
What is really disturbing is after we got Madison down for bed Ben was downstairs and we were sort of lecturing him about what happened and told him accidents happen but things like that can be prevented, we know he didn't do it on purpose.. blah blah blah... and Ben asks... What if I did do it on purpose.... 




WHAT??? DID YOU DO IT ON PURPOSE???

Ben says no, he just wanted to know... but that's a really strange question to ask...Gary told him if he did do it on purpose then he needs to go somewhere and get some help... he said if he had done it on purpose he would have beat the shit out of him... which really took me by surprise....Now I've always had this weird feeling about Ben...I love him to death don't get me wrong... but when he gets mad... like really mad.... I swear he reminds me of a serial killer... he gets super beat red... and starts shaking... and literally looks like he's going to freaking explode... now he's asking weird questions about hurting his sister on purpose...I was like if you did it on purpose... you're going to have to live somewhere else where people can help you, gary was like yeah, there would be something wrong with you psychologically if you did do it on purpose... and if you did you really need to let us know so we can get you some help. Ben says no... but the doubt is there now.... 


Stressed me out... the whole situation...After Ben went out of the room Gary looks at me and is like What the fuck kind of question is that...I said...I told you... there's something not right in his mind I think..>I wonder seriously if I should see about getting him some kind of counseling or soemthing...I would hate to be that mom that saw things and didn't do anything about them and then one day... the unimaginable happened.... not sure what to do.... maybe I should talk to his doctor and see what she says????

Nothing has happened yet today..>I just wanted to come and be able to say I've updated the blog 2 days in a row...I only have 2 people that even know about this blog and I'm not sure either of them read it..pretty sure no one does... but sometimes it's nice to get your words down on (electronic) paper... It's monday... the start of another week.... got Ben off to school... Gary's off today but has to go to the other base for an interview for something. I want to order pics for my walls but it is so expensive... I finally opened some of my frames and got some pics up.... it looks good so far but I need more.... So that is going to be my project for a while...gotta order them first...I had them all set up through shutterfly yesterday but then had to cancel it because there were glossy photos i noticed after i'd checked out and i don't like glossy... so I have to go through and redo the order... walgreens is having a sale right now so i think i might just go through them this time... might be faster.. and cheaper is always better!

Been too long

Well, 
Again it has been way to long since I have updated this blog...I forget about it and then tons of things happen and I forget it all. 

Biggest thing is I moved to Alabama. It's interesting here I suppose. It's really hot and humid... and the people are either super nice or super rude. I think it just depends on which area of town you go to. 

We live on base now, it's okay I suppose. The houses are really cheap and sorta crappy... it seems smaller than our house in abq but the kids really love it here, there is a park out back and i swear everyone comes to that park. There are always kids out there... even when it rains! 

Ben goes to school on base but its not the base we live on... its about 20 minutes away to the other base. It's going pretty good so far. 

We got everything and unpacked... and i'd say we are pretty settled...  we hope to not be here forever... but I guess we will see... gary doesn't do his real job here so he is complaining pretty bad to the higher ups... i guess hoping to get moved so he can actually use the 10 months of training... but who knows... hopefully it doesn't backfire and keep us here longer...

I don't honestly think I could say that I will miss this place when I move. I don't really have any friends here, and I don't have a lot of opportunities to meet new people. Plus... I don't do real well with people anyway. I have 2 nice neighbors... and I talk to them sometimes... but I can tell they don't really have an interest in being my friend... one of them is significantly older than me ... and busy with her own kids... and the other is younger than me with no kids... so we don't have too much in common. I miss abq a little because I did have awesome friends there... I miss Amber and Carla so much... I still talk to them sometimes... and I of course still have Jessy... but its so hard being so far away. Although, while I was in Va for the 10 months I feel like she kind of blew me off a lot to hang out with her other friends..I mean I guess I get it since I have the kids and stuff... but it kind of hurt my feeling a little... I guess it was for the best... it would have been harder to move if we had been hanging out all the time...

I guess only time will tell... I am really excited though about November... Jessy and I are planning a girls weekend when the new twilight movie comes out... we are planning on going to the marathon! it's going to be awesome... right now we are thinking hilton head... neither of us have been before...it's going to be epic! i'm super excited! 

Well..I think that's a pretty good update for now.... More later if I remember!