Slightly depressed

I can't help but feel pretty down about all kinds of things that have been happening lately. I know I shouldn't, because it's not my fault, but the fact is that bad things are happening and I don't like it. First off, G and I had this massive fight last weekend on Halloween, I'm so tired of being treated like the maid of the house just because I don't work. I still bring in an income, and when you sit down and look at it it's the same amount of money that I was bringing home before after I paid daycare. It sucks that I never feel like I'm appreciated, nothing I do is ever good enough and the whole house treats me like a maid. G leaves his shit all over the house, B does the same thing.... M doesn't know better yet, but it's freaking impossible to get anything done with her chasing around behind me crying to be picked up all day... it's hard staying home... i never believed that was possible when i didn't stay home, but there's always so much to do. B is in school during the day but he's only there for 6 hours a day... and M is home with me all day... she's got some separation anxiety issues i think.... and i can't get help from anyone to do anything...it's so annoying... why should i have to do EVERYTHING just because i don't work...im pretty sure it would be far easier to go to work and have to NOTHING at home... just like everyone else in this house.... anyway... we got in this huge fight and i was so wishing i lived closer to home..i'd have packed the kids up and we'd have left for a while... f that... i hate living here because when we get in a big ass fight like that i don't have anywhere i can go... fucking nowhere... it's shit.... i have one friend here but she's always so dramatic... every day her boyfriend has done something or some girl has talked to him or something retarded...i can't deal with drama...i'm very anti drama...i don't have the patience for it... and it sucks because if you tell her she's being ridiculous she gets all pissy at you!!!! So... everyday she's chatting on gmail... since i don't know how to turn it off on my phone!) about this and that and the other.... that i just can't bring myself to care about!
On top of all that G decided to apply for a job in London... after i said i didn't think i wanted to go ... so i guess there's a pretty good chance we could be moving over there.... he said he's got a really good chance.... that worries me...i mean i don't like living here so much but i'm not sure how i would handle living across the ocean from everyone.... 

Then... the cat had this thing happen this week.... on monday he was acting funky... like crying... and doing something weird with his butt...well by the end of the day when i noticed him acting so weird i decided to take him to the vet because i was afraid he had a urinary blockage... which turns out he did... 2nd vet.... emergency vca hospital... of course...  turns out the estimate for the thing was over two grand... about had a heart attack... well... he was a good boy.. and the doc was able to get a cathetor in him without any anestesia.. which was great... except when they went to take it out the next day he blocked again.. so they did xrays and found he has a bunch of little bladder stones... and had to have surgery to get them out... but they decided rather than do that surgery to do this other surgery that basically turned him into a girl... it got rid of all of his man junk... and created a new place for him to pee... a bigger urethra.... poor kitty... but i got lucky... and they had an intern project ... so the cost was FAR less than if a real vet did the surgery... and they gave me some sort of rescue shelter discount... so i only had to pay 1002 dollars... and i actually got approved for this credit thing with no interest through the vet.. so that's so much better than it would have been... but still.... its a grand that i don't really have right now...we are in a tight spot... our bills are piling up... and it sucks because when i get a job we are probably going to lose money because we will have to pay daycare for 2 kids.... and jobs here don't pay shit!!!! 
oh....well i figure i've bitched enough in my first blog.... feels good to get some of that off my chest though!